The Good Life

It's time I got back to the good life
It's time I got back, it's time I got back
And I don't even know how I got off the track
-Weezer, The Good Life

Today was a good day. I was able to get off work and play some good competitive paintball with some friends and had a good time doing so. I didn't play so well at first but once I got back into the swing of things, I got better. I didn't make any game breaking moves or stick someone stupid but I did my part to win the points I played and to me that's what is most important. It is what I miss most, doing my part.

I know that sounds odd of all the things I would miss about paintball but it's true. I love the adrenaline rush. I love battling with people. I love the sound. I love the excitement, intensity, aggression and outright insanity that is paintball. But I miss being part of a team even more. I miss going out to the field on Saturday or Sunday, meeting up with your best friends, shoot the shit for a little while then throw your gear on and play some ball. I miss stepping on the field and devising a game plan 20 seconds before it all starts. I miss the moment when after the dust has settled and you see that your team has more bodies then the other team the satisfaction that everyone did their part to win. I miss it, I really do.

This is the good life and I'm happiest after a hot day on the field. I'm soaked, I smell and I'm sore to the bone but I don't want anything else. Not money, not food, not fame, not even a beer (well, maybe a beer), I just want paintball and somehow, someway, I need to get back to it. I don't know what other sacrifice I need to make but I need to do something as this has gone on for far too long. Don't get me wrong I still enjoy reffing but I didn't get into to paintball to ref, I got into paintball to play paintball. I guess I'll just have to suck it up a little bit longer.

Thanks to everyone who was out there today; Carlos, Matt, Max, Jameson, Ryan, Chase, Pelto, Mikey, Kevin and the Texas A&M guys. Also thanks to Kim and the Twisted staff, my home away from home...